A Tourist Again

And I'm back again - just as a tourist this time though, which has been good and hard all at the same time. 

Ah Jesse. How I missed you - it was a fun reunion, walking around London, and that's a hand-drawn Jabba the Hutt I made for her for Valentines - once she did an impression of Jabba the Hutt for a guy. Apparently it didn't go well, clearly he's a weirdo. Anyway, I thought I would show her there's love for every Hutt - plus, Jesse is ...Inkabunga... 

Bronuts! So tasty, and clearly belong on fingers... 

So once upon a time, I made a birthday cake for a friend but it was just two of us... I had tons of leftover cake for ages! Good news, it is all finally eaten and gone. Hooray! (Brownie base, chocolate and mango mousse layers, and a ganache top) yum... 

These days, my most common adventures revolve around baking... like these delicious rolls... yum

This is where I'm staying at the moment, south of the river nearest tube stop is Bermondsey. It's quite nice here.

And has a cute park nearby :)

My brother and I are having quite the time playing Words with Friends. Clearly I'm struggling - but in our current game, I'm only 11 points behind! So I'm catching up!

My sweet friend Emily and I made pizza from scratch the other day. Gotta work on the crust recipe but it was pretty tasty - pepperoni, onion, peppers, and even a few mushrooms 

Clearly, this is the sign for the Ministry for Magic entrance at the tube station as identified by Emily :)

Temple day with sweet Harriet - we did two sessions, had a lovely picnic and everything. Good day for thinking but was a bit exhausting :)

More adventures with Jesse. She knows how to get me out of the house even when I'm feeling incredibly ill... 

Get all the tea! Aww no, she was holding them all so I could get a pic for my mom to pick which kind she wanted - I also snapped this one which Jesse might not be so happy about

Pretty horses

Abraham Lincoln near Parliament 

Jesse's "ironic" shoes were perfect for the occasion

Isn't Westminster Abbey just gorgeous?

In other news... if you've read this far I guess it's not a problem if I tell you more about my poor brain.  I'm officially a tourist in London again. It's been really weird to be a tourist, on my own, in a city I've lived in for a year and a half. Everyone keeps asking me how I'm doing, what I'm up to, and where I'm going after London. And with each question, the fear inside me grows stronger. I know everyone means well because they're my dear friends who just want to be a part of my life. But I don't have any answers and it's just making it harder to be here - which is probably a good thing as I need to leave soon. However, still worse is when people comment that this is the time of my life. Unfortunately I'm feeling quite pessimistic - so it's all downhill from here.

The thing I'm struggling with most is to do stuff on my own. At the moment, it feels very pointlesss - I've seen so many beautiful things, made wonderful friends, learned so much, but I feel I've plateaued and I don't know what to do to get started again. I've been trying new hobbies, trying old ones, I've looked into jobs and more school, everything is just filling time and I don't want my whole life to be about that. So at present I shall wait, continue to fill time, until I can find something else... In the meantime, I shall continue to enjoy London :)